A trip to heaven and back........

Once again..2nd year in a row ..i left on my journey to "heaven" ....
Got there quite comfortably this time and all prepared unlike the last time where i had not carried a dupatta(which is like the most essential thing to carry - its like a "duh" moment i felt ) with me :)
This time we were there for 3 whole days....soaking ourselves in the glory of the Lord...
The darshans we had were spectacular.....nothing less than being ONE with HIM...
First evening there...the moment he was brought in....i felt my body shiver and got goose bumps....
ONly GOd can make one feel that way...was only too happy to see HIM and prayed for all of you :)
Beautiful bhajans....chanting of the vedas.... Swami smiling at us....looking in our direction most of the time...
A few times it felt as if it was only HIM and me in Prashanti Nilayam....everythign else was a blur....just Him and me...thats it....eye to eye contact...communicating each word clearly and me understanding each word too.!
ON our second evening there ..while queing up for tokens...my friend was the first one in line and she had to pick th token..1 2 and 3 were gone already ..she casually said "i wish i get the divine number 9" and guess what- yea! Swami proved it that he hears every word we speak! :)
The next day was Sunday - our last day there...Swami wasnt coming in the mornings for Darshan ...but that day HE knew it was our last day and we would miss His physical form immensely ...so He did come! :)
and what a darshan it was! Bliss i say!......
That evening...again while waiting in line to pick the token my friend said - "we shouldnt get anything beyond 3 ya its our last evening here" and i said "no compromising this evening - only ONE i say " and Yes...HE...the all knowing - all compassionate granted my wish :)
We were there...so close to HIM...looking at HIm...soaking in all the energy....saw him materialising chains for a few devottees who performed for HIM...How lucky and blessed are they!
Looking at it positively..i think we were lucky to even witness His miracles...:)
While all this was going on...ofcourse there were bhajans that were being sung....and we were immersed in HIs love....one after the other beautiful bhajans...
Just when one got over ..i dont know what and why...but i started to hum "manasa bhajore guru charanam" and Lo behold!!! that was the very bhajan which was sung next...i could stop the floodgates of my tear glands... :)
It was over whelming to know and experience how Swami listens to each thought that even passes our minds...:)
We saw each corner of parthi...went all over ... took loads of pics which will be up soon ..
It truly is "heaven"...and I miss it....dont like earth no more....
Wanna go back to HIS abode :)

....The state of "nothingness"....

Have you ever been in a state of "nothingness"?

What is the state of "nothingness"?

Its quite self explanatory- it just simply means - that you feel nothing. NO happiness. NO sadness. NO anger.NO greed.NO Jealousy.
Basically no reaction to anything.

I was in that state for 3 days....and believe me or not it was "Bliss"- its sad im back to the normal world which has all that one should not be attracted to....But i do not want to try too hard to be God.

Yes God does say "The only difference between you and me is that I realise I am God, and you don't" - Its true. Ive realised it.

Realising and staying in the realisation are 2 very different things.

Its how the mind works. When the wise say "Its all in the mind" - i know exactly what they mean. Its how you psyche yourself to feel. Same way try psyching yourself into the state of "Nothingness" ...its fun! :)
Nothing bothers you anymore. U r just one with yourself. Its like you surrender to the Universe...and you feel sooo light...

Ok i think ill quit here coz im begining to sound like i know all about everything - but the truth is i dont know everything...im just kind of getting there and loving it ! :)

I read this somewhere and really thought it was worth a mention -
"The only truth is - everyone does lie"

:)

Witnessing the Bramha Kamal...

D-I-V-I-N-E!
B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L !
S-P-L-E-N-D-I-D!

Saussurea obvallata, also known as Bramha Kamal, is a species of flowering plant named after Brahma, the Hindu god of creation. It is native to the Himalayas, northern Burma and south-west China.

This rare lotus is named after Lord Brahma, the creator in Indian Mythology. It is considered very lucky to see it bloom and blooms around midnight. White it blooms the buds emit a strong fragrance. The blooming starts late evening after sunset and reaches full bloom by midnight surviving for that single night only….There is even one Indian postage stamp dedicated to this flower…

We had the pleasure of witnessing it in full bloom at the neighbours garden a few minutes ago! :)

The dot dot dot series ;)

How many times in life have we said to ourselves or heard someone say to us - "when one door shuts .. many windows open" or then "whatever is happening is happening for a reason and a good one at that" or then "im sure there is something better which awaits you"...
Well yeah ive heard loads of that myself....
The phase is called...-the begining of the end- you can feel it...feel the end coming closer and closer...and then just even before u realise it..its over!
Then comes the analysing phase as to why it happened..how would it have been if it hadnt had happened...no use ...absoultely no use doing tht...its happened..u cant do much..u cant go back in time and undo it...u have to let go...
"Letting go"...that my friend is the name of the game..for some its as easy as changing clothes..for some its as tough as laundering those muck filled clothes....
Sometimes maybe its good not to let go too easily..sometimes the sooner the better...
How does one know which one is when?! i don't know.... :)
It ends with a period... a simple dot....but it just marks a start of something new.....
This i say with conviction and experience..for if I hadnt let go...i would have missed out on this...and this somehow seems very peaceful....:) more peaceful than wondering if i should let go or not...something that im loving and enjoying each moment of....:)
Yes it ended with a simple dot...., but definitely has marked the begining of something brand new ! :)

The Rain....Time and People....

The Pitter Patter of the Rain...
Something about it...that i love...not that it makes me happy or sad or anything close to it.....it touches just the right chords....
takes me back in time...makes me smile ...to the memories i have created in it...
makes me cry ...coz i cant have them anymore... makes me wanna make new memories...
but then i hope they dont remain just memories...so then i give up the thought in fear....

Time...
Something about it that makes me wonder...as to how we let it just go by..... every minute is precious....once its gone...its gone for good....no rewinding this tape of life!
Its free but its priceless! :)
Life is all about timing...the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable becomes available, the unattainable ..attainable. Have the patience, wait it out...It's all about the timing!

People....
Something about them that i love :) ...how we take them for granted...how we like to take them for granted...how we feel that if we don't take them for granted they don't belong to us..
its a weird feeling and maybe you think its a weird thought......but yea....that's how most people are....and i talk out of experience... :)

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I dont know...i dont care...or maybe i do???

Well.....its been long ive posted anything...yeah i promised to complete the previous one ..but now i dont feel like it.... :)
Isnt life about doing and not doing what you feel like and what you dont?
I dont know what to write hence the time wasting lines ...
I posted a pic of mine on the social networking sites ...i worked on the pic a bit...tinted it blue and captioned it "ive got the blues"....
Its funny how many ppl commented on it....
I think people are more than happy to faff around nowadays on these sites...
I know a lot of ppl who on a saturday night may not go out but will not even go to bed early..but faff on facebook just to see whats going on in other ppls lives...
Maybe sometimes...im one of them..who faffs....just maybe....just sometimes :)....
Then again...why did i put the pic up??? To see it myself?? I dont think so ...
Should i then say such things about people....i dont know...i dont care...

For some reason...i feel like a free bird at this moment...I feel i can just about write anything without bothering what it may make someone feel....
No worries that will kill me...yeah worries that may make me sick..but not kill me..so its cool! ;)
Maybe its the wine talking...i dont know...
I dont care :)

Why do ppl fall in love??
Someone once told me...people fall in love for selfish reasons...
Is that so? I dont know!I dont care...;) - or maybe i do???
When i fell in love...i wondered why i couldnt "rise" in it? Maybe coz i wasnt selfish?? i dont know....weird....i think its high time i know something...

Bhagawan Sri Sathya Sai Baba.. He's Got the whole world in His hands.....

IN the hands of the Lord of the universe, are WE, the children of the Lord Himself........ INterlocked are we, the children of the Lord, in His Fold............... Hands that help are Holier than Lips that Pray................ EVERYTHING is in GODs(Swamis) Hands..... Soft are the hands of Love, just like Swamis.............. The eye of the master will do more work than both his hands.......... God(Swami) warms his hands at man's heart when he prays............. Swami has the "safest" pair of hands.......... And out of darkness came the hands that reach thro' nature, moulding men.....moulding each one of us...each day...each hour...each minute....each second................. Sairam....................:)