Thursday, December 3, 2009

2009 - Reflections of The good, the bad and the ugly





The year 2009, has been THE most eventful year of my Life.
26 years, i lived in my own cacoon , protected by mother earth and her creator , only to be jolted out of it in my 27th year.

It begun with me being in hospital..where my spine was operated upon.. spent nearly 2 months recuperating...only to be forced to quit my job at a place I had
spent nearly 7 years and had loved every bit.
Then came the big blow of the relationship i was in. I dont even know if I can call it a "relationship" per say.. coz he was in Mumbai and me in Pune and we carried
on this way for nearly 3 years.
Did not work. Realised over time, it was something he did not want and eventually convinced me that i did not want it either.
It was not an easy feat.But yeah we HAD to do it.

Then to top it all i kind of broke my knee. O.K -not really broke but accidently tore my cartilage and ligaments inside of my knee and had to surgically get it fixed.

All in all...a year which brought me out of my "comfort zone" only to realise there is a big bad world outside which i did not even know existed and its a
game of the survival of the fittest.

Looking back, i think i am glad, all that happened, happened.

I would not have realised the value of being fit had i not broken my back and knee.
I would not have realised the value of people and money had i not been forced to quit my job.
I would not have realised the what a person can make out of you, or what you can make out of a person you take for granted.
Last but not the least, I would not have known my spiritual guide, Sri Satya Sai Baba if all of this had not happened .

It means a lot to me and i am greatful to god to get me on to this path ... to test me ..in each sphere and to make me learn to fight battles which on a normal day,
without the external force giving me the energy and stamina, I would have given up!

As the year ends, I have found my peace. I have found what I was looking for.And I am proud of my find.
I know a lot more than I did.I am learning each day and I am aware that i am on a path where I will keep learning for the rest of my life and all these are just
tests the good lord takes to make us stronger human beings.
I know this is the path I have chosen to tread , much before I even existed.
I know that if If God brings you to it,He will bring you through it.


I look forward to the next year with new beginings in each sphere.I make no resolutions.
I hope 2010, you take me where I wanna go!

- Tina


P.S - "Its the begining of the end" - Yes i agree and i can feel it .
Thank you for being a part of my life!